Blog name

I've been thinking of changing the name of this blog. I originally created it as a place for me to talk about my struggles with my eating disorder, hence the name "Russian Anorexic". But, I've since recovered and have moved on. I want to keep the name as a memory of the struggles I went through to recover and so my old fans from my Twitter days can still find me. But the name is not relevant anymore. 

There's also the issue of if you google "Russian Anorexic", the first hit is my blog. But, the next hits are from pornographic websites. Not something I want to associate with. 

I've already changed the name of my blog once. Back in early 2013, I changed it from "Ranting Russian" to "Russian Anorexic" to capture the shift in focus from stupid everyday rants to posts about eating disorders. Why not do it again now that there's a second shift in focus? 

If you one day notice this blog has a different name, now you know why. 

Vladik

A country of raw beauty

After I finished all my training in Russia, I was sent to Dushanbe, the capital of Tajikistan. Now, I grew up a city boy in Russia. I was then forced to become a country boy overnight when I moved to Canada. I might have lived on a farm but I was never really an outdoors person. Tajikistan changed that.

During the summer, I had the chance to explore the absolute raw beauty of Tajikistan's mountain ranges. I went on a 3 day trekking trip with a few of my Russian friends in the Fann Mountains in the Pamirs.

My new phone screensaver.

This was my first time trekking and it was breathtaking. The clear blue skies, the green-tinted lakes lakes, the snow-covered mountain peaks in the distance. I've never seen such raw beauty. 

Tajikistan is a country of raw beauty. The city boy in me has slowly been transformed into an outdoorsman as I take in the beauty of this mountainous country. Even in Dushanbe, I see the silhouette of the Fann Mountains in the distance. 

I never thought I'd fall in love with a small landlocked, Muslim country in Central Asia, bordering Afghanistan of all places. Tajikistan is a poor country. Like most Soviet republics, Tajikistan was thrown into chaos following the collapse of the USSR. A civil war broke out as civil uprest broke out across southern Tajikistan. 

Remnants of Tajikistan's Soviet past still remain. Most Tajiks still speak Russian. It is often said, to climb the social ladder, you must speak Russian. Many Tajiks also work abroad in Russia to support their families. 

I'm currently trying to learn Tajiki. Its a dialect of Persian, similar to Dari in Afghanistan or Farsi in Iran. Tajikistan uses the Cyrillic alphabet, another remnant of its Soviet past, which lucky for me, makes learning it much easier. 

I've been living in Tajikistan for 6 months now. I hope I won't have to leave any time soon. Maybe one day, when I leave the military, I'll settle down in Tajikistan and live my days in the mountains. 

Vladik

Recovery is a choice

I'm a recovered anorexic. Plan and simple. I no longer count calories. If I see something I like, I buy it and eat it. No guilt. No sorrow. Its just food to me.

7 years ago, I was also an active part of the pro-ana community. I was one of the most active and well-known members. I had a thousand followers on Twitter and would document my daily struggles.

To this day, I still believe recovery is a choice. You cannot force someone to go into recovery against their own will. It won't work; they won't recover. They'll game the system just enough to be released. Then, its back to starving themselves.

I don't agree with the "anorexia is a lifestyle" mindset. No, its a disease. A disease of the mind that manifests and physically destroys your body. That's my main issue with the pro-ana community; that some people promote it as a lifestyle. However, the one thing I will agree with them on is that recovery is a choice. 

Do not force your family member or friend into recovery. Don't say shit like "if you don't recover, we can never be friends." Just don't.

Support your friends. Encourage them to recover. But don't force them to do anything.

In the end, recovery is a choice.

Vladik

That time I was accused of being a sock account

This happened in 2013. Thought I would share this fun little story. You can see my original post from 7 years ago here.

I used to have a passion for investigative reporting. Don't ask me why but I did. I wrote an article on my now deleted LiveJournal about the use of sock accounts on FanFiction.net. I used to write fanfiction back in the day and was most active in the new Hawaii Five-0 fandom. So, imagine my surprise when I found multiple blog posts documenting the prevalent use of sock accounts to bully authors in the original Hawaii Five-0 fandom. Perfect topic to write about, right?

Well, I guess I hit a sore spot because I got the following message shortly after I posted it:

Like you I hate sock accounts too, but I have to ask you to please remove the references to myself and my LJ as evidence of your investigation into sock accounts, specifically Remington's

I respected their wishes and deleted the post. I later deleted my LJ after it was hacked by school bullies (that's a story for another time!)

Remington was the name of a former author in the original Hawaii Five-0 fandom who supposedly committed suicide. I can't remember the details now and have since lost the article I wrote. 

Anyway, another author in the Hawaii Five-0 fandom who I guess knew of Remington began posting various slanderous things about me. At the time, I was upset. But now, looking back, god these posts are actually so funny. I thought I would share because damn I had a good laugh.

Note: My username on FanFiction.net used to be StreetBoyRussia but I changed it due to privacy reasons to Vladimir Popov (my pen name).

Disclaimer: Please don't send hate to this individual. I'm just having some fun here reacting to crazy ramblings about myself. If they want me to credit them, more than happy to do that!

Post #1

I think I need to explain to this little sock just how stalking works.

You see this sock appeared on my LJ a few months ago.

We should stand in awe because this Canadian sock from the original Hawaii Five O fandom on ff.net was originally called Remington101 and committed suicide last year after which it's sock sister claimed publicly in a story it was 'posting' to the original Hawaii Five O fandom that it had committed suicide because of bullying. She also claimed he was bullied by school friends and by me over the internet because I dared to politely tell him that he could not take and use posts I had posted to my ff.net profile without my permission nor could he tell other people they could also freely take what I had posted to my profile. She even dramatically posted his suicide note to the AN in the story he was writing, the day he supposedly committed suicide.( I do have a copy of this AN) As I said this sock was a miracle because within days the sock had risen from the grave and was posting on other sites. The sock disappeared after I pointed this miracle out, reappearing under several different names. And strangely enough the sister's pen name also changed and all traces on both profiles referring to the Remington sock and it's suicide were deleted and the profiles made to look like new accounts and writers. streetboyrussia who like his last sock has a sad life story to win sympathy and like his previous sock claims he is being bullied. Well he hit my LJ and then started the same bullshit he tried to start on ff.net.

After I had checked out his LJ page once because I thought I had recognized his profile pic and then realized who it was. (LOL he needs an imagination as much of his story is exactly the same as his last sock persona and LOL so is his profile pic) I posted here publicly that I did not want to have anything to do with him. I have since been told that he is now claiming that I am stalking him on here on Live Journal.

streetboyrussia- its a little hard to stalk you when I don't hit your journal and you are the one who is continually hitting my mine. Funny how you hit my journal when ever anything happens on FF.net. Now go away little sock, go and annoy someone else

The bullying behavior and the intimidation that a small group of writers from the small Five O Fanatics writers' group in the original Hawaii Five O fandom are carrying out in an attempt to force other writers out of the fandom so they can freely plagiarize is really past the point of being ridiculous.

14/2/13 - Just a quick note- I have been told the sock has deleted it's account here on LJ - I don't think the little sock likes being exposed. Also I was told by several people how this little sock has changed it's name and its background. It now calls itself Vladimir Popov and since ff.net has allowed it's members to manually change their location- it raced to change it's country to Russia Federation and has completely changed its profile- no longer is it a poor little street boy living on the streets of Canada after such a hard and pathetic life- now its Russian with a completely different name and background. PATHETIC!!!! And like all the socks these idiots creates, it has several of them listed in its favs list.

I find it funny how this sock appears when the Canadian and the US slash writers of their little group sticks their heads out to post. LOL it doesn't take much imagination to know just who this sock belongs to. LOL

Alright, let's break this down! I'm not going to get involved with the whole Remington and original Hawaii five-0 fandom thing because frankly, I don't know what happened / don't care.

So I'm automatically Remington because I viewed your journal...

I liked Hawaii Five-0. You wrote Hawaii Five-0 stories on LiveJournal...of course I'm going to view your journal...

You wrote a 643 word journal entry about me. That's pretty stalker-ish...

It now calls itself Vladimir Popov and since ff.net has allowed it's members to manually change their location- it raced to change it's country to Russia Federation and has completely changed its profile- no longer is it a poor little street boy living on the streets of Canada after such a hard and pathetic life- now its Russian with a completely different name and background.

I was never in Russia at this time... I had been in Canada all along...

I think I maybe changed my location to Russia on FanFiction.net for fun at one point? 

I will admit. I am Russian. I always have been. I was born in St Petersburg for godsakes. Not sure why it was so shocking to them that a homeless person in Canada could also be Russian (those things aren't mutually exclusive).

To clarify. I was homeless in Russia. Got adopted and moved to Northern Ontario. Lived a relatively normal life and went to school. Ran away from my adoptive parent's home along with my girlfriend and little brother due to mental health reasons. Lived on the streets in Toronto for a bit. Moved out east to live with my girlfriend's family. Broke up with said girlfriend. Moved back to Northern Ontario. Lived with a foster family until I turned 18.


Their second post is even better:

Post #2

It seems the little sock Remington101/ StreetBoyRussia/ The King Said Fuck You/ Vladimir Popov now has a blog. LOL A friend checked it out and sent me a message laughing- It seems this little sock is complaining I dared called it out here in my journal and is carrying on about how I have it wrong- He is real.

He is crying about how I have my post here in my LJ about him and how I have him confused with the Remington sock. He apparently also mentions how he hits my LJ multiple times only because I write the original Five-O and how he is not the only boy in Canada (Umm my dear little sock make up your mind- your ff.net profile said you were in Russia not Canada even though we know that's where the person who created this sock lives- its funny how you ran and deleted the profile story you posted there and the country location after my last post about you- but dont worry- I do have it screencapped.) who loves Hawaii Five-O and it claims the Remington101 sock just happens to have the same background story as he has. Funny how the Remington sock's pen names changes to exactly the same pen names he has used. One little thing you should know Vladimir or what ever pen name you are going to use next-It's extremely easy to follow socks like you. This newest sock in its blog also apparently asks anyone reading my LJ not to believe what I have written here about it.

Its a pity this sock lies through its teeth to get sympathy and to look like the victim. It forgets to tell its readers how its ff.net account changed from the dead sock remington101 (Our miracle back from the dead sock who supposedly committed suicide in an attempt to bully me by creating a sister sock that blamed me publicly in its unfinished Hawaii Five-O story's AN and on it'd profile , even posting the so called suicide note she found on his computer while he lay on the floor in a pool of blood after cutting his throat- but then this little miracle sock continued to post in the days and weeks to other sites after its death) That same account has undergone several sock pen names after this death , including its sock that plagiarized The King Said Fuck You, until it settled for several months on its StreetBoyRussia name. Then when I called it out for continuously hitting my LJ and screaming I was stalking him and pointed out it was all the same socks, it deleted it's LJ account here and changed it's pen name to Vladimir Popov. It's socks remington101 and StreetBoyRussia claimed how everyone and anyone was bullying him .That is now the same reason why he had to changed his pen name yet again and now in his blog has started up the same shit!!! It gets tiring to see it do the same sob bullying victim story over and over again- especially after it did the MOST disgusting act of bullying itself.

I have been told it even has the hide to do a rant about bullying on its blog-and I have seen in several forums on FF.net where it does the 'poor me' posts about how it is cyber-bullied for attention and sympathy- I am so disgusted with this sock and its owners after their behavior- its not funny.

So little Remington101 / 101Remington / 101remington7/Eve Blue Star/ StreetBoyRussia / 101dobles / The King says Fuck You / ican'tbelieveyouarecopyingthis / pleasedeletethisaccountPLEASE / Alexander Zavrazhnov / thisisfuckingstupid / BluePortal91 / Vladimir Popov and the other two or three pen names you have used to bully and lie with- and posting your 101remington NCIS story under your current account kind of gives it away...don't ya think? Bawhhaaaaa ( Also little sock- Google is a wonderful invention- it leaves such a wonderful trail of your pen names for everyone to see) before you run again to your blog and cry how I am bullying you by calling out your socks- get a few facts right-

Your FF.net profile stated you are in Russia (before you ran and hid the country and deleted your profile info- and everyone knows that now you can manually choose what country to show on ff.net . But don't worry little sock as I said above I do have the screencaps of your profile before you deleted the info)- and yet I have been told your latest post to in your blog about me you claim now you are in Canada - Bawhhaaaa.

What I love the best is when your pen name was StreetBoyRussia your background and posts claimed you were a poor little Russian boy- abandoned by your parents at the age of 7 to live on the streets in Russia- then last year you were adopted by a Canadian family who also abused you until you fled to the streets in Canada with a girlfriend and her brother. You even claimed you were riding freight trains and spending most of your time in internet cafes -LOl yet you were able to write, save and post fan fic stories and set up fan fic sites ect. (But don't worry as I said before- these posts and profiles for StreetBoyRussia and all your other socks have been screen capped,- so Yes little sock I do have evidence of your lies) Now you have changed your name because you claimed in a ff.net forum that kids from school were bullying you (ummm you were supposedly a street kid- not at school) suddenly you have a new background living with your parents- except you can't decide if you are in Russia or Germany and you are now a school kid attending school regularly - Bawhhaaaa- little sock- you are an idiot and a laughing stock if you believe that no one notices your constant lies. So many people watching your blog and FB page are laughing and telling me about your latest lies.

Secondly- its funny how you complain about me and call me a troll when I have never ever posted to any of your stories or journals but you continue to stalk my LJ, especially when we both know your excuse of hitting this journal just to read my stories is a lie. We both post to ff.net and I have seen your hits to my forum, my profile and stories there and you even admit to hitting this journal multiple times and by that blog entry I was told about - you continue to hit this journal. So little sock how am I bullying you when YOU have to come to MY journal to read my posts. If you and your friends in the Hawaii Five-O fanatics writers group from ff.net do not like what I have written here in MY journal- then stop hitting it.

So grow up little sock and tell your owners to do the same. Stop making up socks and start putting the effort into your stories and betaing- Its easy to see none of you have any imagination with the same sob stories you use with your socks like this one. Bawhhaaaaa.

Alright. Even more to unpack here. Let's go para-by-para because this is too good.

It seems the little sock Remington101/ StreetBoyRussia/ The King Said Fuck You/ Vladimir Popov now has a blog. LOL A friend checked it out and sent me a message laughing- It seems this little sock is complaining I dared called it out here in my journal and is carrying on about how I have it wrong- He is real.

Come on! If you're going to mention my blog, AT LEAST link it. What's the point of a shoutout if you're not going to even link the author!

He is crying about how I have my post here in my LJ about him and how I have him confused with the Remington sock. He apparently also mentions how he hits my LJ multiple times only because I write the original Five-O and how he is not the only boy in Canada...who loves Hawaii Five-O and it claims the Remington101 sock just happens to have the same background story as he has.

We have the same background? Wow this Remington kid was also a former Russian street kid? Damn, we should start a support group together. Former Russian street kids who moved to Canada, write Hawaii Five-0 stories, and have other authors write long-winded crazy rants about you.

(Umm my dear little sock make up your mind- your ff.net profile said you were in Russia not Canada even though we know that's where the person who created this sock lives- its funny how you ran and deleted the profile story you posted there and the country location after my last post about you- but dont worry- I do have it screencapped.)

Cool. You have a screenshot saying I lived in Canada. I've never denied that. I can tell you the town I used to live in as well if you want. Its a shithole and I don't ever plan on going back. 

Funny how the Remington sock's pen names changes to exactly the same pen names he has used. One little thing you should know Vladimir or what ever pen name you are going to use next-It's extremely easy to follow socks like you. This newest sock in its blog also apparently asks anyone reading my LJ not to believe what I have written here about it.

Wow me and Remington had the same account name? GASP. Maybe he's my stalker?

(Our miracle back from the dead sock who supposedly committed suicide in an attempt to bully me by creating a sister sock that blamed me publicly in its unfinished Hawaii Five-O story's AN and on it'd profile , even posting the so called suicide note she found on his computer while he lay on the floor in a pool of blood after cutting his throat- but then this little miracle sock continued to post in the days and weeks to other sites after its death)

Jokes aside. If this actually happened to you, I'm sorry. I don't know if Remington or the suicide story was real (all I have is heresy and I can't form a solid opinion based on just second-hand information). If they blamed you for the fake suicide of a teenager, that's absolutely disgusting.

Its a pity this sock lies through its teeth to get sympathy and to look like the victim. It forgets to tell its readers how its ff.net account changed from the dead sock remington101 ...That same account has undergone several sock pen names after this death , including its sock that plagiarized The King Said Fuck You, until it settled for several months on its StreetBoyRussia name.

The King Said F**k You. Interesting story name. I'm surprised FanFiction.net allows that as a story name. I would assume they would have some sort of profanity filter.

Then when I called it out for continuously hitting my LJ and screaming I was stalking him and pointed out it was all the same socks, it deleted it's LJ account here and changed it's pen name to Vladimir Popov.

YOU WERE STALKING ME!!! You somehow found my Russian birth name! HOW?????

Also RIP my LiveJournal.

It's socks remington101 and StreetBoyRussia claimed how everyone and anyone was bullying him .That is now the same reason why he had to changed his pen name yet again and now in his blog has started up the same shit!!! It gets tiring to see it do the same sob bullying victim story over and over again- especially after it did the MOST disgusting act of bullying itself.

Again, if you're going to talk about my blog, please link it. Thank you :)

I have been told it even has the hide to do a rant about bullying on its blog-and I have seen in several forums on FF.net where it does the 'poor me' posts about how it is cyber-bullied for attention and sympathy- I am so disgusted with this sock and its owners after their behavior- its not funny.

Ah yes. How dare I reach out for support after being bullied online. It wasn't like some schoolyard bullies made an account dedicated to hating on me (where they also claimed I raped my girlfriend).

Remington101 / 101Remington / 101remington7/Eve Blue Star/ StreetBoyRussia / 101dobles / The King says Fuck You / ican'tbelieveyouarecopyingthis / pleasedeletethisaccountPLEASE / Alexander Zavrazhnov / thisisfuckingstupid / BluePortal91 / Vladimir Popov

"I don't stalk you but I somehow know your Russian birth name even though you didn't post it on any public forum."

I only revealed my birth name in February 2020 so... sorta creepy how they got it back in 2013...

I don't go by that name anymore but still...

(If you actually see this post, can you actually let me know how you got this information? This is the one thing I'm actually creeped out by)

Your FF.net profile stated you are in Russia (before you ran and hid the country and deleted your profile info- and everyone knows that now you can manually choose what country to show on ff.net . But don't worry little sock as I said above I do have the screencaps of your profile before you deleted the info)- and yet I have been told your latest post to in your blog about me you claim now you are in Canada - Bawhhaaaa.

Again. I never denied that I was a Russian living in Canada. In fact, I made an entire post about moving from Canada to Russia!! Also I just noticed my FanFiction.net profile actually says: "If you couldn't tell by my name, I am was born and raised in Russia. I moved to Canada a few years back"

I don't understand why you're so caught up on this one little detail!

What I love the best is when your pen name was StreetBoyRussia your background and posts claimed you were a poor little Russian boy- abandoned by your parents at the age of 7 to live on the streets in Russia- then last year you were adopted by a Canadian family who also abused you until you fled to the streets in Canada with a girlfriend and her brother.

There you go! You finally got it!

You even claimed you were riding freight trains and spending most of your time in internet cafes -LOl yet you were able to write, save and post fan fic stories and set up fan fic sites ect.

This is just sad how disconnected you (and most of society) are with the reality of homelessness. Most homeless youth have access to the internet. They post on social media just like you and me. When you're homeless, you have all the time in the world. I used writing FanFiction as a way to pass the time and escape my painful reality. Now that I actually have made something out of my life, I no longer need that escape.

(But don't worry as I said before- these posts and profiles for StreetBoyRussia and all your other socks have been screen capped,- so Yes little sock I do have evidence of your lies)

Yo do you mind sending me these screencaps? I want to create a collage of my time on the streets.

Now you have changed your name because you claimed in a ff.net forum that kids from school were bullying you (ummm you were supposedly a street kid- not at school) suddenly you have a new background living with your parents- except you can't decide if you are in Russia or Germany and you are now a school kid attending school regularly -

Sigh. I thought you got it...

Alrighy. Let me re-iterate.

I was homeless in Russia. Got adopted and moved to Northern Ontario. Lived a relatively normal life and went to school. Ran away from my adoptive parent's home along with my girlfriend and little brother due to mental health reasons. Lived on the streets in Toronto for a bit. Moved out east to live with my girlfriend's family. Broke up with said girlfriend. Moved back to Northern Ontario. Lived with a foster family until I turned 18. 

Bawhhaaaa- little sock- you are an idiot and a laughing stock if you believe that no one notices your constant lies. So many people watching your blog and FB page are laughing and telling me about your latest lies.

Please link my blog and FB page if you're going to talk about it. Give credit where credit is due. Failure to cite your sources is plagiarism :)

Secondly- its funny how you complain about me and call me a troll when I have never ever posted to any of your stories or journals but you continue to stalk my LJ, especially when we both know your excuse of hitting this journal just to read my stories is a lie. 

YOU FOUND MY RUSSIAN BIRTH NAME AND ACCUSED ME OF BEING A DEAD KID!!!!

We both post to ff.net and I have seen your hits to my forum, my profile and stories there and you even admit to hitting this journal multiple times and by that blog entry I was told about - you continue to hit this journal.

If you have a crazy person is ranting about you, wouldn't you look at their profile??

So little sock how am I bullying you when YOU have to come to MY journal to read my posts.

Um you write long-winded rants about me accusing me of stuff I don't even understand? And you sorta doxxed me by revealing my birth name?

So grow up little sock and tell your owners to do the same. Stop making up socks and start putting the effort into your stories and betaing- Its easy to see none of you have any imagination with the same sob stories you use with your socks like this one. Bawhhaaaaa.

Pinky promise this will be my last sock account. Next time, I'll pretend to be a Nigerian Prince (I will give you 20% of my 100 million fortune for a small fee of $1,000).


Hope you guys enjoyed!

Again, please don't send hate to this person. This stuff doesn't bother me anymore and honestly, its hilarious. 

Vladik

Hey it's been a while

Wow its been over 6 years since I last posted. Looking back at this blog has been a journey down memory lane. So much has happened since 2013; I barely even recognize 14 year old me.

I'm now 21. I'm proud to say I've been recovered for the past 4 years. I now eat an average of 2500 calories a day without feeling an ounce of guilt. I can't believe 6 years ago, I would break down crying if I ate more than 500 calories a day. It's been quite a journey that I wish I could have shared with you all. But, my journey to recovery was a journey that I had to take by myself.

I moved back to Russia two years ago. I love Canada but I felt so restricted there.

I was a crown ward, living in rural town in Northern Ontario.

Population: 3,500.

I don't know if you've ever lived in a small town before but everyone knows everything. You can't keep a secret. People knew about my history with alcohol abuse, eating disorders, depression, anxiety, and running away. When I moved out of my adoptive parent's house (this was when I was most active on social media), I thought it was going to be a new start. I moved to a town 8 hours south. No one knew me.

Yet, somehow my past followed me there. People soon started to piece together my broken past. It became common knowledge. And, it became so suffocating.

I knew I wanted to move back to Russia. But, I wasn't sure how to do it. I had a Canadian passport but wouldn't I need to get my Russian passport as well? All I knew at the time was that I had to save up money for my trip home. So, I began taking on any and all jobs.

The day I turned 18, I aged out of the foster care system. I hitchhiked for two days to reach Ottawa. Once I got to Ottawa, the first place I visited was the Russian Embassy. I walked in, showed my Canadian passport that proudly displayed by place of birth as 'St Petersburg, Russia', and said in Russian, "I want a Russian passport to go home."

I couldn't produce a Russian birth certificate. I had no idea if I was even still a Russian citizen. All I had was my adoption certificate stating that "James Smith" was adopted from Russia to a Canadian couple.

It took the embassy 5 months to confirm my identity, another 3 months to produce a birth certificate, and another 2 months to issue me a passport. They gave me the choice to go back to my Russian birth name, Alexander Zavrazhnov, or keep my Canadian legal name, James Smith.

I chose neither.

I didn't want to be Sasha, that homeless kid around St Petersburg. Nor, do I want to be James, that weird kid who starved himself.

I had been going by the name Vladik for quite some time and it just felt right. I chose the name Vladimir.

I moved to Russia a few months before I turned 19. I didn't have anything waiting for me back at Russia so I decided to join the military. Conscription is a thing here so to cover myself, I volunteered for service.

Since then, life has been good. More posts to come :)

Cheers all,

Vladik