Wow its been over 6 years since I last posted. Looking back at this blog has been a journey down memory lane. So much has happened since 2013; I barely even recognize 14 year old me.
I'm now 21. I'm proud to say I've been recovered for the past 4 years. I now eat an average of 2500 calories a day without feeling an ounce of guilt. I can't believe 6 years ago, I would break down crying if I ate more than 500 calories a day. It's been quite a journey that I wish I could have shared with you all. But, my journey to recovery was a journey that I had to take by myself.
I moved back to Russia two years ago. I love Canada but I felt so restricted there.
I was a crown ward, living in rural town in Northern Ontario.
Population: 3,500.
I don't know if you've ever lived in a small town before but everyone knows everything. You can't keep a secret. People knew about my history with alcohol abuse, eating disorders, depression, anxiety, and running away. When I moved out of my adoptive parent's house (this was when I was most active on social media), I thought it was going to be a new start. I moved to a town 8 hours south. No one knew me.
Yet, somehow my past followed me there. People soon started to piece together my broken past. It became common knowledge. And, it became so suffocating.
I knew I wanted to move back to Russia. But, I wasn't sure how to do it. I had a Canadian passport but wouldn't I need to get my Russian passport as well? All I knew at the time was that I had to save up money for my trip home. So, I began taking on any and all jobs.
The day I turned 18, I aged out of the foster care system. I hitchhiked for two days to reach Ottawa. Once I got to Ottawa, the first place I visited was the Russian Embassy. I walked in, showed my Canadian passport that proudly displayed by place of birth as 'St Petersburg, Russia', and said in Russian, "I want a Russian passport to go home."
I couldn't produce a Russian birth certificate. I had no idea if I was even still a Russian citizen. All I had was my adoption certificate stating that "James Smith" was adopted from Russia to a Canadian couple.
It took the embassy 5 months to confirm my identity, another 3 months to produce a birth certificate, and another 2 months to issue me a passport. They gave me the choice to go back to my Russian birth name, Alexander Zavrazhnov, or keep my Canadian legal name, James Smith.
I chose neither.
I didn't want to be Sasha, that homeless kid around St Petersburg. Nor, do I want to be James, that weird kid who starved himself.
I had been going by the name Vladik for quite some time and it just felt right. I chose the name Vladimir.
I moved to Russia a few months before I turned 19. I didn't have anything waiting for me back at Russia so I decided to join the military. Conscription is a thing here so to cover myself, I volunteered for service.
Since then, life has been good. More posts to come :)
Cheers all,
Vladik
February 01, 2020
June 26, 2013
Sorry About the Lack of Tweets
Okay so I haven't been tweeting or updating this blog for like EVER. I just logged onto my email and I received quite a few tweets concerning my wellbeing. Well I can safely say I'm fine. The reason for this is a lot if things but the main reason for my lack of tweets is because we just moved to a new province. Packing and unpacking everything, settling down to a new environment, and not knowing anyone has been very time consuming.
Also my girlfriend thought she was pregnant and that caused a lot of drama. I had to admit I was freaked out! We're both only 14 and parenthood is something we can definitely not handle. Luckily she wasn't so phew!!
Another thing is the NHL playoffs (not surprisingly). It sucked. I can't believe the Hawks won!!!! Not fair....
Well I'm probably not going to be tweeting that often for the remainder of June but I promise you I will start tweeting as soon as I can!
Like I said before sorry for worrying you guys. I just want you to know I'm fine (but still really busy) and I'll be tweeting like crazy as soon as everything smooths out.
Remember, you are beautiful,
Vladik
Also my girlfriend thought she was pregnant and that caused a lot of drama. I had to admit I was freaked out! We're both only 14 and parenthood is something we can definitely not handle. Luckily she wasn't so phew!!
Another thing is the NHL playoffs (not surprisingly). It sucked. I can't believe the Hawks won!!!! Not fair....
Well I'm probably not going to be tweeting that often for the remainder of June but I promise you I will start tweeting as soon as I can!
Like I said before sorry for worrying you guys. I just want you to know I'm fine (but still really busy) and I'll be tweeting like crazy as soon as everything smooths out.
Remember, you are beautiful,
Vladik
May 30, 2013
I Hate Myself
If you met me just out of the blue, you would think that I'm one of the happiest guys around. Yes I love to smile and make others smile as well but does that mean that I smile on the inside? The answer is sometimes. I sometimes smile on the inside.
I have very little self-esteem/self-confidence. I hate myself. I often feel like I am worthless, that I don't deserve to live. I don't suffer from depression but I do have symptoms of depression. The doctor said that they were too low for him to diagnose me with depression. But still, I hate myself. But I fight, every day I fight for my happiness. I tell myself that I am worth it and that I am beautiful the way I am.
I am worth it.
I had a heart scare a few months back and I actually made it into the local newspaper! They actually wrote a little bit about my self-esteem.
*Note that they changed my name for privacy issues.
Aww thanks but I'm ugly as fuck.
In reality, I hate myself. I might not act that way but I do. I hate everything about myself; my height, my weight, my hair colour, my accent, my immature personality, EVERYTHING. But I don't care, I will fight for my happiness. I am beautiful in my own way and I will tell myself this everyday.
I am worth it.
I have very little self-esteem/self-confidence. I hate myself. I often feel like I am worthless, that I don't deserve to live. I don't suffer from depression but I do have symptoms of depression. The doctor said that they were too low for him to diagnose me with depression. But still, I hate myself. But I fight, every day I fight for my happiness. I tell myself that I am worth it and that I am beautiful the way I am.
I am worth it.
I had a heart scare a few months back and I actually made it into the local newspaper! They actually wrote a little bit about my self-esteem.
"We interviewed Alex* yesterday and when
asked why he starved himself, he replied by saying, “I don't
deserve food. I'm not good enough.” With his blond hair, good looks
and out-going personality, one might be surprised by the fact he has
such low self-esteem. “I hate myself. I'm fat and ugly. I'm just a
failure.”"
*Note that they changed my name for privacy issues.
Aww thanks but I'm ugly as fuck.
In reality, I hate myself. I might not act that way but I do. I hate everything about myself; my height, my weight, my hair colour, my accent, my immature personality, EVERYTHING. But I don't care, I will fight for my happiness. I am beautiful in my own way and I will tell myself this everyday.
I am worth it.
May 17, 2013
Different Types of Eating Disorders
When one thinks about eating disorders (EDs) the main thought would be skinny girls starving themselves. Many people think that there is only one type of ED but in reality there are multiple types. These include under eating and over eating as well as a combination of the two.
First here are a few definitions you will need to know.
Eating disorder
Eating disorders are a condition defined by abnormal eating habits, both under eating and over eating, because of one's mental of physical health.
Binge eating (binging)
Binge eating is the uncontrollable consumption of large quantities of food.
Purging
Purging is the act of compensatory behaviour to controls one's weight after eating. Examples of purging are (but not limited to) using laxatives, self-induced vomiting, and/or over exercising.
So without any further complications here are a list of the most common eating disorders.
Anorexia Nervosa
Probably the most well known, Anorexia Nervosa (often called simply anorexia. Note that anorexia is a symptom where one does not feel hungry but it is usually used to refer to Anorexia Nervosa) is an eating disorder characterized by the refusal to eat due to an obsession with having a skinny body and irrational fear of gaining weight, as well as a distorted body self-perception. No matter how skinny they are, it is not enough. It has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness at 20%.
Anorexia is most prevalent in adolescent girls but recent studies have shown younger and younger children are also suffering from it. Also it is estimated that 1 in 4 anorexics are male though in recovery programs only 1 in 10 are males. This is because males are much likely to be diagnosed. It may affect anyone from any social, economical or cultural background.
Anorexics typically consume around 600-800 but cases of complete starvation have been documented. You do no have to be underweight to suffer from anorexia.
Bulimia Nervosa
Bulimia Nervosa (often called bulimia) is an eating disorder characterized by frequent episodes of eating large amounts of food uncontrollably (binge eating) as well as a compensatory behaviour intended to prevent excessive weight gain, often dubbed "purging". Examples of purging are using laxatives, self-induced vomiting, over exercising... etc. The key difference between bulimia and anorexia is anorexics do not purge.
Bulimia and anorexia are closely related. It is believed that half of the teens suffering from anorexia also suffer from bulimia. People who suffer from both can be diagnosed with an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (see below) or Anorexia with Bulimic Tendencies. They usually do not eat for a prolonged period of time and then binge and eventually purge. This is a way of controlling their weight though extremely unhealthy.
People with bulimia are generally at a healthy weight. Bulimia is considered less life threatening than anorexia but studies have shown that is much more prevalent. It is believed that up to 1% of women suffer from this. Bulimia is nine times more common in females than males.
Binge Eating Disorder (BED)
The most common eating disorder but still not recognized as a separate eating disorder, Binge Eating Disorder (BED) is an eating disorder characterized by frequent episodes of binge eating (eating large amounts of food uncontrollably) without using compensatory behaviour (laxatives, self-induced vomiting, over exercising) to prevent weight gain. Usually these episodes last no more than two hours but some cases are shown to be different. They difference between BED and bulimia is that bulimics use compensatory methods to prevent weight gain.
In the USA it is believed to affect 2-3% of the population. Also 30% of people seeking weight loss treatments have BED. Most people with BED are classified as overweight or obese but people at a healthy weight may also suffer from this.
Unlike anorexia and bulimia, the gender difference between the two are much smaller. Women are twice more likely to suffer from BED than men. Like anorexia, it may affect anyone from any social, economical or cultural background.
At the moment, people with BED are often diagnosed with an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS) since it has not been recognized as a separate eating disorder.
Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS)
An EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified) is diagnosis given to someone with an eating disorder that does not fit the criteria of anorexia, or bulimia. EDNOS symptoms and behaviors can vary widely. Someone with this could restrict their calorie intake for a day and then binge the next day or they could suffer from BED (many people with BED are diagnosed with EDNOS because BED is not recognized as an eating disorder).
EDNOS is as serious as any other eating disorder and should not be taken lightly.
Night Eating Syndrome (NES)
Night Eating Syndrome (NES) is an emerging eating disorder where a person eats very little during the day and binges at night. It is characterized by obsessively eating over half of their daily calories after eight o'clock.
The difference between NES and BED (Binge Eating Disorder) is that NES patients binge at night instead of throughout the day and generally snack instead of eating full meals. This is often seen as a way to cope with depression. People with NES also do not purge, differing it from bulimia.
Orthorexia Nervosa
Orthorexia Nervosa is relatively new compared with it's counterparts but is as deadly. Orthorexia is an eating disorder characterized by an obsession to eat "pure" foods. Put simply, they have an unhealthy obsession with eating healthy.
The difference between orthorexia and anorexia is that anorexics focus more on their bodies while orthorexics focus more on the food they are eating. Most people diagnosed with it do not have distorted self-perception. Like BED it is not recognized as a separate eating disorder.
Muscle Dysmorphia (Bigorexia)
Muscle dysmorphia, known informally as bigorexia is not necessarily an eating disorder but it does fall into the category of abnormal eating habits. Like its name, it is a disorder in which a person becomes obsessed with not having enough muscle. It is quite similar to anorexia in the sense the person has distorted body self-perception but people with this are focused more on building muscle. No matter how muscular they are, they feel as if that is not enough.
Bigorexia almost entirely affects men but cases of women having bigorexia have been documented. Most cases are of body builders.
First here are a few definitions you will need to know.
Eating disorder
Eating disorders are a condition defined by abnormal eating habits, both under eating and over eating, because of one's mental of physical health.
Binge eating (binging)
Binge eating is the uncontrollable consumption of large quantities of food.
Purging
Purging is the act of compensatory behaviour to controls one's weight after eating. Examples of purging are (but not limited to) using laxatives, self-induced vomiting, and/or over exercising.
So without any further complications here are a list of the most common eating disorders.
Anorexia Nervosa
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| Anorexia Nervosa is characterized by the refusal to eat. |
Anorexia is most prevalent in adolescent girls but recent studies have shown younger and younger children are also suffering from it. Also it is estimated that 1 in 4 anorexics are male though in recovery programs only 1 in 10 are males. This is because males are much likely to be diagnosed. It may affect anyone from any social, economical or cultural background.
Anorexics typically consume around 600-800 but cases of complete starvation have been documented. You do no have to be underweight to suffer from anorexia.
Bulimia Nervosa
Bulimia Nervosa (often called bulimia) is an eating disorder characterized by frequent episodes of eating large amounts of food uncontrollably (binge eating) as well as a compensatory behaviour intended to prevent excessive weight gain, often dubbed "purging". Examples of purging are using laxatives, self-induced vomiting, over exercising... etc. The key difference between bulimia and anorexia is anorexics do not purge.
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| An example of purging. |
People with bulimia are generally at a healthy weight. Bulimia is considered less life threatening than anorexia but studies have shown that is much more prevalent. It is believed that up to 1% of women suffer from this. Bulimia is nine times more common in females than males.
Binge Eating Disorder (BED)
The most common eating disorder but still not recognized as a separate eating disorder, Binge Eating Disorder (BED) is an eating disorder characterized by frequent episodes of binge eating (eating large amounts of food uncontrollably) without using compensatory behaviour (laxatives, self-induced vomiting, over exercising) to prevent weight gain. Usually these episodes last no more than two hours but some cases are shown to be different. They difference between BED and bulimia is that bulimics use compensatory methods to prevent weight gain.
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| Binge eating is the uncontrollable consumption of large quantities of food. |
Unlike anorexia and bulimia, the gender difference between the two are much smaller. Women are twice more likely to suffer from BED than men. Like anorexia, it may affect anyone from any social, economical or cultural background.
At the moment, people with BED are often diagnosed with an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS) since it has not been recognized as a separate eating disorder.
Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS)
An EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified) is diagnosis given to someone with an eating disorder that does not fit the criteria of anorexia, or bulimia. EDNOS symptoms and behaviors can vary widely. Someone with this could restrict their calorie intake for a day and then binge the next day or they could suffer from BED (many people with BED are diagnosed with EDNOS because BED is not recognized as an eating disorder).
EDNOS is as serious as any other eating disorder and should not be taken lightly.
Night Eating Syndrome (NES)
Night Eating Syndrome (NES) is an emerging eating disorder where a person eats very little during the day and binges at night. It is characterized by obsessively eating over half of their daily calories after eight o'clock.
The difference between NES and BED (Binge Eating Disorder) is that NES patients binge at night instead of throughout the day and generally snack instead of eating full meals. This is often seen as a way to cope with depression. People with NES also do not purge, differing it from bulimia.
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| People with orthorexia have an unhealthy obsession with eating healthy. |
Orthorexia Nervosa
Orthorexia Nervosa is relatively new compared with it's counterparts but is as deadly. Orthorexia is an eating disorder characterized by an obsession to eat "pure" foods. Put simply, they have an unhealthy obsession with eating healthy.
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| No matter how muscular they are, they feel as if that is not enough. |
Muscle Dysmorphia (Bigorexia)
Muscle dysmorphia, known informally as bigorexia is not necessarily an eating disorder but it does fall into the category of abnormal eating habits. Like its name, it is a disorder in which a person becomes obsessed with not having enough muscle. It is quite similar to anorexia in the sense the person has distorted body self-perception but people with this are focused more on building muscle. No matter how muscular they are, they feel as if that is not enough.
Bigorexia almost entirely affects men but cases of women having bigorexia have been documented. Most cases are of body builders.
May 05, 2013
Things NOT to say to Anorexics
Somethings that you might think are innocent enough to say to someone with anorexia are actually either very offensive or might cause them to lose more weight.
Here are some things you should avoid saying:
Can you give me some weight lose tips?
Yes I can give you weight lose tips but you might just die in the process.
Yes anorexics generally know quite a lot of weight lose tips but these tips are dangerous and life threatening. You will lose weight using these tips but they will probably be extremely unhealthy. You probably will lose a few pounds but as soon as you go back to your regular eating patterns, you will gain the weight back.
What to do instead.
If you really want to loose weight, eat healthy and moderately exercise. Do NOT join the ED community.
But I've seen you eat!
We are people too and that means we eat. Most people think anorexics completely stop eating. That is not the case. We mostly cut back on what we eat. We still will eat but not as much. When you say this to someone with an eating disorder, they might take it as an insult and start eating less.
What to do instead.
Don't comment about what they eat. Commenting about what they eat will make them quite nervous and not want to eat around you.
How much do you weigh?
Tell me how much you weigh first.
It's human nature to not want to tell other people your weight. Anorexics are no different. Would you like people asking you about your weight constantly? Probably not. So don't ask others this question.
What to do instead.
Don't make comments about their weight/shape/food intake. This will make them nervous and strain your relationship. Also they might want to cut back on food even more.
You're so thin it's unhealthy!
Thank you.
You might think this is an insult but most anorexics will call this a compliment. Armed with the motivation to lose more weight, they will cut back on food and exercise more intensely for more people to notice and for them to comment about it as well.
What to do instead.
Best thing to do, don't comment about their body. Their body is their body meaning that you have no right to be talking about it.
I have anorexia because I skipped a meal.
No. Just no.
Let me tell you a story. I have a friend named Erin and she is sort of a wannarexic. She says that she has anorexia because she doesn't eat breakfast. Okay you might have the symptom anorexia but you do NOT have Anorexia Nervosa! Skipping a meal does not mean you have an eating disorder.
Saying this is very, very offensive. When Erin said this, I was shocked. I couldn't believe she had just said that. I was very offended. I didn't say anything about it because she is a good friend but still, I was pissed.
Saying this is implying that eating disorders are a joke and everyone has one to a certain extent. Anorexia/bulimia/EDNOS are NOT jokes. They are serious mental illnesses that kill. Anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness with 20% succumbing to their eating disorder and only 40% truly recover. Doesn't sound funny now does it?
What to do instead.
Just don't say it.
Eat something or (insert threat here)
Threatening them to eat is quite a stupid thing to do. Most people who do this actually have pure intentions but this is not the way to go.
Threats do not work. In all honesty, threatening them will only cause strain on your relationship. They will pull away from you and believe that you are the villain in the story. Also chances are they won't eat anything.
What to do instead.
Encourage them to eat. Don't force them to, encourage them. There is a difference.
Just snap out of it!
Trust me if I could, I would.
You cannot just snap out of an eating disorder. If that was the case then why would there be such a high mortality rate, eh?
It's not a state or mind, it is an illness. Saying "Just snap out of it!" to an anorexic is likes saying "Just snap out of it!" to a cancer victim. You cannot just snap out of it; it takes time to heal. Saying this will only strain your relationship.
What to do instead.
Like I said before, encourage them to get better. Don't force it upon them, encourage them.
Here are some things you should avoid saying:
Can you give me some weight lose tips?
Yes I can give you weight lose tips but you might just die in the process.
Yes anorexics generally know quite a lot of weight lose tips but these tips are dangerous and life threatening. You will lose weight using these tips but they will probably be extremely unhealthy. You probably will lose a few pounds but as soon as you go back to your regular eating patterns, you will gain the weight back.
What to do instead.
If you really want to loose weight, eat healthy and moderately exercise. Do NOT join the ED community.
But I've seen you eat!
We are people too and that means we eat. Most people think anorexics completely stop eating. That is not the case. We mostly cut back on what we eat. We still will eat but not as much. When you say this to someone with an eating disorder, they might take it as an insult and start eating less.
What to do instead.
Don't comment about what they eat. Commenting about what they eat will make them quite nervous and not want to eat around you.
How much do you weigh?
Tell me how much you weigh first.
It's human nature to not want to tell other people your weight. Anorexics are no different. Would you like people asking you about your weight constantly? Probably not. So don't ask others this question.
What to do instead.
Don't make comments about their weight/shape/food intake. This will make them nervous and strain your relationship. Also they might want to cut back on food even more.
You're so thin it's unhealthy!
Thank you.
You might think this is an insult but most anorexics will call this a compliment. Armed with the motivation to lose more weight, they will cut back on food and exercise more intensely for more people to notice and for them to comment about it as well.
What to do instead.
Best thing to do, don't comment about their body. Their body is their body meaning that you have no right to be talking about it.
I have anorexia because I skipped a meal.
No. Just no.
Let me tell you a story. I have a friend named Erin and she is sort of a wannarexic. She says that she has anorexia because she doesn't eat breakfast. Okay you might have the symptom anorexia but you do NOT have Anorexia Nervosa! Skipping a meal does not mean you have an eating disorder.
Saying this is very, very offensive. When Erin said this, I was shocked. I couldn't believe she had just said that. I was very offended. I didn't say anything about it because she is a good friend but still, I was pissed.
Saying this is implying that eating disorders are a joke and everyone has one to a certain extent. Anorexia/bulimia/EDNOS are NOT jokes. They are serious mental illnesses that kill. Anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any mental illness with 20% succumbing to their eating disorder and only 40% truly recover. Doesn't sound funny now does it?
What to do instead.
Just don't say it.
Eat something or (insert threat here)
Threatening them to eat is quite a stupid thing to do. Most people who do this actually have pure intentions but this is not the way to go.
Threats do not work. In all honesty, threatening them will only cause strain on your relationship. They will pull away from you and believe that you are the villain in the story. Also chances are they won't eat anything.
What to do instead.
Encourage them to eat. Don't force them to, encourage them. There is a difference.
Just snap out of it!
Trust me if I could, I would.
You cannot just snap out of an eating disorder. If that was the case then why would there be such a high mortality rate, eh?
It's not a state or mind, it is an illness. Saying "Just snap out of it!" to an anorexic is likes saying "Just snap out of it!" to a cancer victim. You cannot just snap out of it; it takes time to heal. Saying this will only strain your relationship.
What to do instead.
Like I said before, encourage them to get better. Don't force it upon them, encourage them.
May 04, 2013
Q&A
I get asked a lot of the same questions so I felt like I should make a quick questions and answers post. So here it goes!
How old are you?
14. I turn 15 in October.
How tall are you?
5'6. I know I told a lot of people that I was 5'5 but I grew! But I'm still short...
Do you live in Russia?
Once upon a time I did. Then I moved to Canada.
Where in Canada do you live?
Ontario.
Are you straight?
Yes.
What do you look for in a girl?
She has to be a good person inside. Oh, and she needs to like hockey))))
Do you have a girlfriend?
Yes. We have been dating for almost two years now.
How did your eating disorder start?
I made a post about it!!! Right here.
Do you speak Russian?
да.
Ask me more questions on Ask.fm!!!
How old are you?
14. I turn 15 in October.
How tall are you?
5'6. I know I told a lot of people that I was 5'5 but I grew! But I'm still short...
Do you live in Russia?
Once upon a time I did. Then I moved to Canada.
Where in Canada do you live?
Ontario.
Are you straight?
Yes.
What do you look for in a girl?
She has to be a good person inside. Oh, and she needs to like hockey))))
Do you have a girlfriend?
Yes. We have been dating for almost two years now.
How did your eating disorder start?
I made a post about it!!! Right here.
Do you speak Russian?
да.
Ask me more questions on Ask.fm!!!
April 29, 2013
Autobiography
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I want to say that this was very hard for me to write. I've always kept my past life a secret and now it's out there, on the internet, for anyone and everyone to read. My life is filled with pain and struggle but at the same time hope and happiness. What doesn't kill me always makes me stronger at the end.
I decided to write this mainly because I was bored but also to tell people who have endured the same thing that it does get better. One day, everything will work out. I promise you that.
Here are some excerpts:
Perfect.
It is a word that haunts me. Memories of my past quickly flood my mind when it is spoken. All I wanted was to be perfect. I did anything and everything to achieve that. I didn't care about the consequences, all that mattered was that I was perfect.
So many people called me that. Now and then. On the outside, I might look that way but on the inside, I am the exact opposite. On the inside I am an emotional train wreck. Horrible mood swings, uncontrollable urges to drink, throwing up what I eat, are all part of my perfection.
I am perfectly imperfect. (Prologue)
XXX
“We want an abortion!” suddenly yelled Alex.
“An abortion?” questioned Golovkin. For someone who had sounded so confused, they seemed to be quite confident in their decision.
“Yes...” whispered Lucya. (March 30, 1998)
Smile)))))
If someone saw a guy in chicken suit today it was meToday I set out on a mission; a mission to make people smile. These days, not enough people smile. So what says smile and be happy like dressing up as a giant chicken!
— ana's boy (@RussianAnorexic) April 28, 2013
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| Sexy chicken. |
I was at my friend's house and we were both bored. So I decided to do something crazy. I thought for a second and the thought of dressing up as a chicken came up. I asked a couple of people and they all answered "yes!". So I got dressed. Me friend chickened out and didn't go. I was not drunk!!
Should I go to McDonald's dressed ad a chicken?The first stop was McDonald's. What? It was funny. During the walk there, a ton of people honked and waved at me and some just gave me weird looks asking me if I was drunk. Awesome.
— ana's boy (@RussianAnorexic) April 28, 2013
I just saw a guy walking down the street in a chicken suit...So I went to McDonald's walked around and left. Next stop...the MALL!!! The mall was a little crappy. Long story short, I got kicked out. Fucking security. Well, I went into the store, Target and walked around.
— Willson Smith (@modfox) April 28, 2013
Not sure why there is a chicken walking around target but there is...? #thehell?I then proceeded to walk around the actual mall. Some people took pictures of me while others just laughed and ran away. That's when security kicked me out. Yeah they actually gave me no reason. I'll do a post about that.
— Sandra Johnston (@sandralea15) April 28, 2013
I then continued to walk aimlessly, waving at random people. I went to a book store, pet store, grocery store and a sports store. It was awesome!!! Here are some hilarious reactions I found on Twitter:
In Starbucks. Look to my left.Person in a chicken suit standing there. My 1st question: Is anybody else seeing this? #insaneinthemembrane
— Nina Bozzo (@Xeenee3) April 28, 2013
Just saw a guy in a chicken suit sitting at the grocery store... #strange #chickens
— Keeley Baker (@KeeleyBaker2) April 28, 2013
Just saw a chicken crossing the road. Day=madeThere's probably more but I'm lazy and I don't feel like looking for them.
— Matt Powell (@phatmatt13) April 28, 2013
Well, I hope you smiled)))))
April 28, 2013
How did my Eating Disorder Start?
I've been asking myself this question for so long. How did my ED start? Did someone say something? Was it because of my biological parents? The police?
I don't know.
I don't know how my eating disorder started or why it did. This has been driving me insane not knowing the answer. Most doctors think that my ED is related to my upbringing. I was abused (physically and emotionally) and neglected as a child. By the age of seven, I was on the streets. I eventually was put into an orphanage. All I wanted was control. I couldn't control anything else in my life but my body. So that's what I did.
That's the doctor's theory. Whether it's true or now, I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know how my eating disorder started or why it did. This has been driving me insane not knowing the answer. Most doctors think that my ED is related to my upbringing. I was abused (physically and emotionally) and neglected as a child. By the age of seven, I was on the streets. I eventually was put into an orphanage. All I wanted was control. I couldn't control anything else in my life but my body. So that's what I did.
That's the doctor's theory. Whether it's true or now, I don't know.
Vladimir Really Does like Vodka
Last night I decided to do something incredibly stupid. I drank a whole bottle of vodka. God I have a bad hangover today. If you were on twitter last night, you probably saw a few of my drunk tweets.
Well after I surpassed my daily limit of tweets, I decided to continue talking to people through DM and other sites (FanFiction.net). It did not turn out well. My messages made absolutely no sense and some of them were a little offensive. Sorry about that.
Oh, than after I finished drinking, I thought of the great idea of rollerblading! God I was drunk. So I grabbed my hockey helmet and laced up the skates. I skated for about two minutes before I decided to do something even more stupid; skate as fast as I can and then stop. Mind you I can ice skate but not rollerblade. I picked up a lot of speed then I realized something; I didn't know how to stop. Uh-oh. I panicked and decided a hockey stop was the best thing to do. Not my brightest moment. You actually can't do a hockey stop on rollerblades without falling. So, I ended up falling flat on my face and I badly skimmed my knee. Luckily my helmet had a cage so I didn't hurt my face!
So, I ended up spending the night at the hospital getting patched up. Not fun.
I just want to say, it was an eventful night! It was my first night out of the inpatient program and I was already back in hospital!
Go Vladimir!!!
dude I just fell doe. The stairs
— ana's boy (@RussianAnorexic) April 26, 2013
i wonder how chickens mate
— ana's boy (@RussianAnorexic) April 26, 2013
@skinnythinbones nightttt. my chickens will seing you a song
— ana's boy (@RussianAnorexic) April 26, 2013
i want to go snowboarding on grass
— ana's boy (@RussianAnorexic) April 26, 2013
“@russiananorexic: @jm_1d oh sorry. i just wanted to see how chickens mate. i thought this was google”Yah ur drunkYeah....
— 6lbs to go (@AnorexicFailure) April 26, 2013
Well after I surpassed my daily limit of tweets, I decided to continue talking to people through DM and other sites (FanFiction.net). It did not turn out well. My messages made absolutely no sense and some of them were a little offensive. Sorry about that.
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| Hockey stop on skates. |
Oh, than after I finished drinking, I thought of the great idea of rollerblading! God I was drunk. So I grabbed my hockey helmet and laced up the skates. I skated for about two minutes before I decided to do something even more stupid; skate as fast as I can and then stop. Mind you I can ice skate but not rollerblade. I picked up a lot of speed then I realized something; I didn't know how to stop. Uh-oh. I panicked and decided a hockey stop was the best thing to do. Not my brightest moment. You actually can't do a hockey stop on rollerblades without falling. So, I ended up falling flat on my face and I badly skimmed my knee. Luckily my helmet had a cage so I didn't hurt my face!
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| Hockey helmet with a cage. |
So, I ended up spending the night at the hospital getting patched up. Not fun.
I just want to say, it was an eventful night! It was my first night out of the inpatient program and I was already back in hospital!
Go Vladimir!!!